It's Over

I called my father last night to ask about the surgery. He lied, no shock. And he hung up on me again.

Glutton for punishment that I am, I stopped by to see him tonight. He has surgery on his shoulder. He immediately started yelling at me. Complaining that I was a bitch to him Saturday. He said I just have to get used to the fact that he has found someone who takes care of him because I never was there for him. Went on to say I turned him down when he asked for help. I started walking away but turned around and said I wanted to say one thing. He basically told me to shut up but I went on. I said, "When we sat out here last year and you told me you were afraid of losing your daughter" he turned away and started to go in the house but I finished "I didn't know you meant you were going to abandon me." The dog was trying to get out to see me and he was shooing her in so I continued and told him I loved him.

It is over. I know that now. It is tearing me apart, little by little. I feel like I have no one to talk to about it and no one to comfort me. I've lost my daddy and didn't do anything wrong. I know it is the same for my mom and telling her just makes me feel worse. I just hate what has become of my family because of that woman.